Author Archives: Chaos5150

About Chaos5150

I'm a medical coder by day, hermit by night, a 24 hr mommy, and a closet line-dancer whenever I get the chance. I love my daughter, I love my job, I love my friends, I love my cats, and I love my family. I love the dry heat, driving into the middle of the desert at night to see the moon and the stars, beading jewelry, torturing the unaware, and scaring people. People say I'm evil, but I'm not. I'm just a little mischievous.

Anxiety

My anxiety is rising over lots of things I cannot control.  I’m dealing with it as best I can but I’m thinking I may need to see a therapist. I’m going to say that the root of my anxiety comes … Continue reading

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Silver

Silver walkway Silver Halls Silver shadows on Silver walls Silver dreams Silver kisses Silver sighs Silver wishes Silver memories Silver pictures Silver brothers Silver sisters Silver clouds Silver light Silver bridges to Silver heights Silver goodbyes on Silver wind Silver souls … Continue reading

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Anger and Fear

I am an angry person.  I was not always this way….maybe a small part but nothing like I am now.  I was always told I was patient and easy going.  Not mellow, there’s a little something too chaotic about me … Continue reading

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Ruled by Fear

Today I had the opportunity to spend some time with my beautiful little girl, so after work  I picked her up from daycare and we went straight to Knott’s Berry Farm to get a few hours in of rides, fun, … Continue reading

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She walked down the path along the bluffs.  On her right was a fence that protected her from falling down the face of the steep bluffs, and on her right was green grass, some palm trees, and the smattering of … Continue reading

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Across the Room

I stand in the doorway and look into the room and I sense, more than see, the  crowd of people.  I feel the air being pushed around while people walk from one group to another.  I feel the heat from … Continue reading

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Today

Today I am depressed.  It’s been creeping on for a while, that something was missing.  As happy as I am on the whole, there’s still something missing.  I’m missing the thrill of the chase, romance, love, companionship.  Its odd with … Continue reading

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