Category Archives: depression

Lies

Posted on March 9, 2012 by Chaos5150

His mouth opens and lies fall from it, they swirl around me warm and comforting. This warmth settles onto my skin like a soft blanket then sinks in through my pores to warm my insides. The warmth fills me and … Continue reading →

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A Good Day

Posted on March 7, 2012 by Chaos5150

Today, strangely, turned out to be a good day. Nothing happened today to make it good.  I actually woke up kinda depressed.  You know, the usual stuff, had a hard time getting out of bed because whats the point?  I … Continue reading →

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A Hard Day

Posted on February 24, 2012 by Chaos5150

Today was difficult, to say the least. I couldn’t concentrate at work. I was weepy all day. I couldn’t eat. And then, after delaying going to his home to pick up my baby girl, I had to wait for his … Continue reading →

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Don’t Panic…..

Posted on March 18, 2011 by Chaos5150

….which is what I have been telling myself most of the evening.  As usual, I didn’t listen to myself. So what caused this emotional turmoil?  I hadn’t heard from my baby’s daddy much over the last few days, if at … Continue reading →

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Bad Day

Posted on February 27, 2011 by Chaos5150

Today is a  bad day, emotionally. Today I woke up and couldn’t get out of bed for a couple of hours, not because there was any pain to keep me there, or because I was still tired (which I wasn’t), … Continue reading →

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Pregnancy and Depression

Posted on February 13, 2011 by Chaos5150

I don’t know if its ok that I reprint this, even though I put the link and everything in it so the people that DID write it get credit for this.   Its just, I don’t feel there is a safe … Continue reading →

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There is no shame in dying

Posted on February 1, 2011 by Chaos5150

What is it like to die? Is it quiet?  Is it that quiet you hear at 3am on a weekday when the world around you is still asleep?  That hush before the sun rises and shines it’s light upon the … Continue reading →

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My biggest loss…..

Posted on November 28, 2010 by Chaos5150

As you anonymous, and most-likely non-existent, readers are probably aware, the last two years have been very difficult for me on a personal level (my career is doing great).  I’ve done a lot of healing, but am not yet a … Continue reading →

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