Category Archives: pregnancy

A baby shower and some honest opinions…..

Posted on June 3, 2011 by Chaos5150

Sunday, May 29th, was my first baby shower.  This was the family one, and I allowed mom to throw the ultra girlie baby shower that she always dreamed of.  It was actually not as bad as I thought it was … Continue reading →

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Fear

Posted on May 21, 2011 by Chaos5150

I find myself afraid of a lot of things lately: Afraid of going through life alone. Afraid of being a bad mommy. Afraid of my child dying before old age claims her. Afraid I’ll not be able to provide for … Continue reading →

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I must remind myself…..

Posted on April 26, 2011 by Chaos5150

….that I am not the center of the universe, not even my universe…..not anymore. Nothing has gone right since I got to Bakersfield on Saturday afternoon.  Well, let me rephrase, nothing has gone the way I want it to….nothing has … Continue reading →

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Don’t Panic…..

Posted on March 18, 2011 by Chaos5150

….which is what I have been telling myself most of the evening.  As usual, I didn’t listen to myself. So what caused this emotional turmoil?  I hadn’t heard from my baby’s daddy much over the last few days, if at … Continue reading →

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The one thing I never heard growing up about being pregnant

Posted on February 27, 2011 by Chaos5150

Any female can tell you that we hear a lot about pregnancy growing up.  I suppose this is because we are expected to grow up, get married, and raise lots of roly-poly babies before we die. I remember hearing about … Continue reading →

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Bad Day

Posted on February 27, 2011 by Chaos5150

Today is a  bad day, emotionally. Today I woke up and couldn’t get out of bed for a couple of hours, not because there was any pain to keep me there, or because I was still tired (which I wasn’t), … Continue reading →

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