Category Archives: Love/Relationships

Across the Room

Posted on January 8, 2016 by Chaos5150

I stand in the doorway and look into the room and I sense, more than see, the  crowd of people.  I feel the air being pushed around while people walk from one group to another.  I feel the heat from … Continue reading →

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Amazing

Posted on August 9, 2015 by Chaos5150

I think I’m pretty amazing. I do not mean to sound arrogant, but I do actually think that of myself.  I look back at my life and see how I’ve grown from the many, many mistakes I’ve made with family, … Continue reading →

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Don’t Touch Me

Posted on May 5, 2012 by Chaos5150

I don’t like to be touched by just anyone, and that’s any touch. The brush of a hand against mine, a touch at the small of my back to let me know that someone is behind me, or even a … Continue reading →

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Lies

Posted on March 9, 2012 by Chaos5150

His mouth opens and lies fall from it, they swirl around me warm and comforting. This warmth settles onto my skin like a soft blanket then sinks in through my pores to warm my insides. The warmth fills me and … Continue reading →

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Dreams

Posted on October 23, 2011 by Chaos5150

I’ve dreamed about him almost every night for the past 2 weeks.  He’s not in whatever plotline that’s going on in my head, but he’s always in there somewhere making an unwanted cameo. His appearances are subtle, never a main … Continue reading →

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I’m so very…..

Posted on March 1, 2011 by Chaos5150

….lucky.  No really, I am.  My life may be the soap opera from hell, but I have friends to share it with me and help me through. I know I’ve written…repeatedly….how very bad I am with words, and that I’m … Continue reading →

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The one thing I never heard growing up about being pregnant

Posted on February 27, 2011 by Chaos5150

Any female can tell you that we hear a lot about pregnancy growing up.  I suppose this is because we are expected to grow up, get married, and raise lots of roly-poly babies before we die. I remember hearing about … Continue reading →

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To dream

Posted on November 13, 2010 by Chaos5150

I went to a friend’s house and had a very good time last night.  It was (mostly) an all girls thing where we just hung out, ate cheese and crackers, laughed, and had lots of fun.  Later in the evening … Continue reading →

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