Category Archives: Life

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Attitude

Posted on April 7, 2013 by Chaos5150

Its amazing how well things are going for the me right now.  I’m moving into a two bedroom apartment this month, so Rachel will be getting her own room.  I am having so much fun with the decorating ideas for … Continue reading →

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Rainy Day Walk

Posted on December 30, 2012 by Chaos5150

Yestarday started out like any other weekend day: slept in until 7:30am (which is when Rachel wakes me up), got up, made breakfast, ate breakfast….wait, what is that noise? Why are the windows all wet?  Oh wow! It’s raining! I … Continue reading →

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Don’t Touch Me

Posted on May 5, 2012 by Chaos5150

I don’t like to be touched by just anyone, and that’s any touch. The brush of a hand against mine, a touch at the small of my back to let me know that someone is behind me, or even a … Continue reading →

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Lies

Posted on March 9, 2012 by Chaos5150

His mouth opens and lies fall from it, they swirl around me warm and comforting. This warmth settles onto my skin like a soft blanket then sinks in through my pores to warm my insides. The warmth fills me and … Continue reading →

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A Good Day

Posted on March 7, 2012 by Chaos5150

Today, strangely, turned out to be a good day. Nothing happened today to make it good.  I actually woke up kinda depressed.  You know, the usual stuff, had a hard time getting out of bed because whats the point?  I … Continue reading →

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Star Wars Day (aka: a day with my baby’s Daddy and his boys)

Posted on February 4, 2012 by Chaos5150

Today I got to do something I’ve been so excited to do since I heard about it.  Today I went to the Star Wars exhibit at the Discovery Science Center. I know, I’m a geek. I have been in love … Continue reading →

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Dreams

Posted on October 23, 2011 by Chaos5150

I’ve dreamed about him almost every night for the past 2 weeks.  He’s not in whatever plotline that’s going on in my head, but he’s always in there somewhere making an unwanted cameo. His appearances are subtle, never a main … Continue reading →

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Don’t Panic…..

Posted on March 18, 2011 by Chaos5150

….which is what I have been telling myself most of the evening.  As usual, I didn’t listen to myself. So what caused this emotional turmoil?  I hadn’t heard from my baby’s daddy much over the last few days, if at … Continue reading →

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I’m so very…..

Posted on March 1, 2011 by Chaos5150

….lucky.  No really, I am.  My life may be the soap opera from hell, but I have friends to share it with me and help me through. I know I’ve written…repeatedly….how very bad I am with words, and that I’m … Continue reading →

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